Ah, escapism. It doesn’t solve your problems, but it can hide you from them for a while. Crafts do that for me. (For that matter, so do tattoos, actual and hypothetical, but that’s a topic for another post.) I mentioned before that I had a job interview coming up, which was this morning. My current employer is going through some crazytown changes, so off I go into the wild blue yonder.
What I don’t believe I mentioned is my problem with anxiety. For the most part, I manage it pretty well. I read somewhere that anxiety is like experiencing failure in advance. So you can imagine that job hunting and interviewing is a fairly stressful process, as it is for most people, I just dial it up a notch. Right now, I’m not feeling so great about my interview, and I legitimately can’t tell if it’s all in my head, or if I really didn’t do that well. The next week or so of waiting is really going to stink.
Obviously, the answer is to ignore everything and do crafts.
Of course, I already have several projects in the works. My rug is coming along nicely: It’s about 3 feet in diameter now, and I’ve moved on to incorporate a couple new shades of blue. Pretty soon, I’m going to need a bigger table to continue working on it. My roses and green quilt is about 60%-70% pieced together. And I have the stalled baby gift quilt (really need to get a move on), and crib-sized quilt (slightly less urgent, but still…).
So clearly, I have plenty to work on. And yet… What I really want to do is try to make my own gravity blanket. Have you seen them? They are weighted blankets–usually about 10% of your body weight, and meant to help with anxiety, sensory processing disorders, and other stuff. I’m told it’s like getting hugged by your blanket.
They’re also several hundred dollars, which just seems ridiculous. I can get a couple of flannel sheets and weighted filler (e.g., Polyfil beads) on Amazon for $50. I just need to figure out how to quilt the sheets into tiny tiny pockets, so that the filler doesn’t move around when the blanket is finished, and doesn’t break the needle of my sewing machine when I’m making it. I’ve found some DIY patterns online, but they are all very basic grids, and I can’t help thinking there would be an awful lot of sloshing about of the filler “beads.” Hmm.
I managed to restrain myself from buying stuff yesterday, based on the logic of my aforementioned projects in progress and the fact that I’ll be moving at some point in the not too distant future, but I have a feeling that restraint won’t last very long…
Pictures to come…